Do you know what I miss most about my old blogging days?
The daily brain dumps.
I find writing so therapeutic, but I don’t tend to do it unless I have the blog accountability. It’s kind of like playing the guitar. If I’m not actively taking lessons, I don’t tend to practice.
This is one of the things I hate about myself.
I have been pondering about starting a daily blog again, like back in the day, but I always end up talking myself out of it.
Mostly it’s my perfection gene kicking in.
What’s the point of blogging in a world full of social media sites?
I don’t have the energy nor desire to write those insanely long SEO posts for my recipes. I’m no longer in the weight loss niche. Do I have a niche? Do I even need a niche?
Ugh. Why am I overcomplicating this?
Overall, the personal blog feels dated and dead. No one reads them anymore. So why bother. Blah. Blah Blah.
I did give TikTok the old college try, but my word is that a lot of work –shooting video, editing, adding music and captions. I mean, it’s kinda fun, but it’s also overwhelming. And it doesn’t feel as authentic or raw as off-the-cuff writing. I rather enjoy just unwinding with my thoughts at the end of the day.
So, anyway, I decided to stop overthinking it. Here I am writing after a long Monday, dog and husband by my side, and I am rather enjoying it.
The kids are in their rooms. They are much older now (15 and 10), so bedtimes are later. They are finally back to in-person school two days a week. It’s been a challenging year, to say the least, but I’ve been proud of them both. They have been keeping up with their school work amid all this craziness.
I’m wrapping up the third semester that the pandemic has impacted, and I may be struggling more than the kids. I fought so hard to get my teaching position back at the college because I love being in the classroom, and for the past year, that’s been nearly impossible.
I was one of the few teachers who did teach face-to-face the last two semesters, but it’s only been a course or two, and the students are mentally in another place. Between the masks and the lack of campus resources, it’s been challenging, and I feel defeated daily.
Then a student will ask a great question or send me a note of appreciation, and it energizes me. I remember why I like teaching so much, but it’s still hard to keep up the energy when everyone and everything feels so… drained… for lack of a better word.
Okay, well, I’m not sure I said much of anything in my first daily post, but you know what? I feel better. I’m glad I pulled out of the old laptop.
Oh! One more thing, I wanted to mention the flower picture I used for this post.
Those flowers are from Easter! My brother and his girlfriend brought them over, and they are still going strong more than two weeks later.
I never buy flowers, and I’m not sure why. I loved having these in the house the last few weeks.
Are you a flower person? I think I may be becoming one in my old age. Is that’s a thing? I think that’s a thing.
Anyway, this was fun. I hope you had a good day. Good night!
17 replies on “Daily Brain Dumps”
Thanks for sharing – not sure why your brain dumps make me feel better but they do. I bought tulips this week with the grocery run and wondered why I don’t do this regularly- they truly bring me some joy each day. Anyway, it’s been a hard year and you’re doing great and keep the brain dumps coming.
WOW Thanks so much for commenting so quickly. It totally made my night!
And yes, I now wonder why I don’t buy flowers more often. They make me smile and totally brighten up the room. I need more simple happy things. 🙂
I wouldnt worry about all that other stuff. Just write for yourself and people will relate to that.
I totally agree. I hate that I overthink these things! Working on it. 🙂
You go girl
I adore fresh flowers and they’re really not that expensive but I guess I’m just too cheap to buy them regularly!!
YES! They seem like a waste of money, yet I love them when I have them.
I suspect those flowers have a more significant meaning for you. After a number of years of not seeing your brother as often as you would have liked, seeing the reminder that he was with you on Easter and that you both had a great time, is a beautiful memory on your table.
Or maybe I’m over-thinking it! 😉
It’s always good to see your writings, Roni. We’ve never met, but I’ve enjoyed your outlook and sense of humor for years now.
It does feel quite strange for me to say “my brother” nonchalantly, like he’s always been here but it’s also getting easier to do so which makes me happy. 🙂
In the parlance of kids these days… you are seen. 🙂
I’ve also been struggling with carving out time to blog lately, and I can tell it’s having an effect on my mindset. It’s not only getting everything out of my head, but it’s also documenting the daily grind (and more important events) in an indexable and searchable format. I know I can tickety-tap a blog post at any given moment on my phone — or, for that matter, dictate one on my Apple Watch — but I’d much rather just sit down with a full-sized keyboard and screen.
The thing that bums me out the most about the state of the personal blog is that I feel required to crosspost to FB if I want anyone to read what I say. RSS readers aren’t the rage like they once were, I’m not down with setting up email subs for my little corner of the interwebs, and I’ve turned off search engine indexing to keep out the riff-raff.
That said, I was glad to see something new from you in my RSS reader. Looking forward to more daily brain dumps!
Also? I love having cut flowers in the house, but it only happens on special occasions. I have plenty of blooms outside during the warm(ish) months, so the annual Valentine’s Day supermarket bouquet is a welcome hit of nature indoors. 🙂
I agree with all this! I also get mad at myself for taking down all my content because I had so much indexed and searchable. The trips with my kids and the recipes and just day-to-day life and I think I’ve been morning that loss for years because the blog was such a part of who I was and am. BUT I let the business of it get in the way. Trying to stay with trends and posting what I though other people would respond to instead of just focusing on the things that brought me joy. My journal posts were my favorite posts and because I let it all get away from me, now I don’t have those awesome archives. So starting to blog again feels almost, heavy and pointless.
So I decided to let that all go and find my roots again. The daily dump and the feeling of relief I have just writing and connecting online.
I have been finding myself with time at the end of the day that just feels wasted watching mindless TV and for weeks now I was like… I should blog. I SHOULD blog. The itch was there. Then I was like.. but I have nothing to say. No recipe to share. No great epiphany. Which is silliness. I just felt like writing so I should write!
Hey Roni…I’m still reading. Hearing from you is like hearing about an old friends life. It’s good to just release your thoughts into the world. As for flowers, I love them, but only the discount flowers. I buy the clearance daisies or carnations and they last forever and brighten the room. Keep bumping your thoughts and some of us will keep reading. 🙂
LOVE the idea of scooping up clearance flowers! And thanks, I can’t express how much I needed these types of interactions in my life again. It feels the same for me.
I had read your blogs for years and I missed it. Thanks for the recent blog posts. I love flowers but rarely buy them, I need to start doing that more often 😉
Thank you for commenting! I super appreciate it.
I appreciate you writing…via the blog. Tik Tok and Insta and my oh my…how do we ever keep up. I must be getting old-as I love the chronological aspect of blogging. I think it’s great you don’t have a niche. Just being you without trying to fit into a mold is always what I’ve liked best about you-your vulnerability and life through your lens is always what kept me around. I loved hearing your laugh on the podcast as well. You be you…it’s all we can do. A stranger from MN