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I Hate My Brain (w47)

Part of me doesn’t want to write this or wants to be vague, but that’s probably the worst thing I could do.

I was really looking forward to this week of training. It’s our peak week, and I had a chance to go as heavy as possible, but I flubbed the dub (do people still say that?) both times.

I felt SO solid in the snatch, too. I nailed my current personal record (PR). It was effortless, and then… I don’t know what happened. I totally got in my head. I wasn’t even that upset because the snatch is very mental for me, and I was genuinely happy with every single lift up until that PR attempt.

That was Monday. Today was clean and jerk, and I did the SAME thing, except worse! I hit one kilo under my current PR. It wasn’t pretty, but it was a good lift. And then I couldn’t shake the self-doubt, and I missed my next three attempts.

I’m giving 100% to my training, so the result will be the result. I KNOW I’m progressing in so many other areas. The image above is my first ever star plank! And I’ve been moving forward in all sorts of other ways, too. It’s just disappointing when you’re not progressing in the only two lifts that matter for the competition. Ugh.

Anyway, just popping in to update the goals and get out of my head a little. Training IS going well, this is all just part of the process and I need to remind myself of that.

I hope you have a great Thanksgiving. I’m ready to cook and chill tomorrow.

2025 Goal Check In

  1. Blog Weekly.
    • so far… ✔️
  2. Paint More. Don’t overthink it.
    • so far… ✔️
  3. Make a new handmade pasta monthly.
    • Jan ✔️ ✔️
    • Feb ✔️ ✔️
    • March ❌
    • April ✔️✔️
    • May ✔️
    • June ✔️
    • July ✔️
    • August ✔️
    • September ✔️
    • October ✔️
    • November ✔️ (failed attempt but an attempt all the same)
  4. Hike at least twice a month.
    • Jan ✔️✔️
    • Feb ✔️✔️
    • March ✔️ ✔️
    • April ✔️✔️
    • May ✔️✔️✔️
    • June ✔️ ✔️
    • July ✔️✔️
    • August ✔️✔️
    • September ✔️❌
    • October ✔️❌
    • November ✔️
  5. Perform one unassisted dip.
    • Still training.
  6. Perform five strict pull-ups.
    • Still on singles.
  7. Handstand walk.
    • Still training.
  8. Take at least three yoga classes a month.
    • Jan ✔️✔️✔️
    • Feb ✔️✔️✔️
    • March ✔️✔️✔️
    • April ✔️✔️ ❌
    • May ✔️✔️✔️
    • June ✔️✔️✔️
    • July ✔️ ✔️ ❌
    • August ✔️✔️✔️✔️
    • September ✔️✔️✔️
    • October ✔️✔️✔️
    • November ✔️✔️
  9. Make homemade sourdough bread.
  10. Take the kids to Iceland.
  11. Fix the holes in my house (long story, lots of plumbing issues this year).
  12. Continue my Spanish Streak on Duolingo (I’m on day 1,231!!).
    • so far…✔️ day 1557
  13. Take a Spanish class in person.
    • UGH This needs a whole post to talk about!!
  14. Plan something special for The Husband’s 50th birthday!
    • I BOOKED IT!
  15. Snatch 125lbs.
    • More confident in this goal now.
  16. Compete in at least one weightlifting meet.
  17. Walk a minimum of half a mile daily with Marsh and, preferably, with the Husband, but I can’t base my goal on him.
    • Very rarely miss a night.
  18. Track my movie-watching on Letterboxd.
  19. Keep my citrus trees alive!
    • so far…✔️ (They seem to be okay in the house so far!)
  20. Host an extended family dinner monthly.
    • Jan ✔️
    • Feb ✔️
    • March ✔️
    • April ✔️
    • May ✔️
    • June ✔️
    • July ❌ (But we went out)
    • August 👌🏻 (Mom hosted to give me a break)
    • September ✔️
    • October ✔️
    • November (Thanksgiving tomorrow!)
  21. Clean out and organize my closet and drawers.
  22. Thrift more and purchase no brand-new clothes.
    • so far…❌ I caved and purchased about five new items this year (mostly for the Iceland trip), but I have also visited many second-hand stores and attended my first clothes swap. I now consider myself a thrifter! 🙂
  23. Take daily supplements more consistently.
    • so far…✔️
  24. Reduce alcohol consumption to once or twice a month.
    • Jan ❌ 1/18, 1/23, 1/31 (close!)
    • Feb 2/1, 2/15 ✔️
    • March 3/22 ✔️
    • April 4/25, 4/26 ✔️
    • May 5/3, 5/10 ✔️
    • June 6/7, 6/19 ✔️
    • July 7/14 ✔️
    • August 8/9, 8/22 ✔️
    • September 9/27 ✔️
    • October 10/25 ✔️
    • November 11/1
  25. Cook one new recipe/dish a month.

2 replies on “I Hate My Brain (w47)”

Thank you for continuing to share. It’s disappointing when the results are not what you were expecting when you’ve put in the work. Hoping all the pieces align on competition day. Happy Thanksgiving!

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