So glad you like your new work so much. I must ask though, and please don’t take offence, I am just wondering, it looks like you have gained about half the weight back from those figures… does that not bother you and are you going to do something about it? Been following your blog for many, many years.
Fiona is referring to the screenshot I posted in yesterday’s post that said I weighed 160 pounds…
I was glad she asked this question as this is something I’ve been wanting to blog about for sometime but I just haven’t been motivated. I answered her in a comment but decided to share it here as a post because it really explains where I am at the moment.
I’m not sure how to respond without sounding offended even though I’m really not. So bear with me as I’ve been meaning to post about this but it’s just not my focus anymore.
First, I don’t know how much I actually weigh at the moment. I hopped on the scale for the first time in years last month but decided again I don’t care about it. There’s no reason to monitor a number that doesn’t serve me any longer.
My highest weight was about 220 lbs and my lowest 135. At 220 I was inactive and ate like crap. When I reached my weight-loss goals and was in the 135 range I was still pretty inactive but I ate slightly better. However, I also ate very little. Following Weight Watchers back then I, on average, only consumed about 20 points a day, which roughly translates to 1,000 calories.
I knew I couldn’t maintain that way of eating forever so I started working out and running, and over the years (10 years — isn’t that crazy?!?) I have really gotten into weight training and lifting.
Now, in my 40s, I’m the most active and fit I have ever been in my life. My weight fluctuates around 10 pounds in that 160ish range. I eat nutritious foods but really don’t deny myself anything. I workout daily, constantly pushing myself to lift heavy and make progress on personal fitness goals. I have decided that those two things (a nutritious, unrestricted diet and an active lifestyle) are way more important to me than what a scale says and how thin I am.
It took me a long time to get to this place of peace with my body. I’m not trying to starve myself into slimness or change its aesthetic to match what media has told me it should look like. My body is the result of my lifestyle and I’m living exactly the way I want.
So the short answer is… no, it doesn’t bother me.