I did something that scared me today. Something pretty small and insignificant but scared me nonetheless.
I blocked Facebook from my browser.
You can roll your eyes all you want. It’s cool. I know how ridiculous it is to literally have to block myself from a website, but truth be told, I couldn’t stop myself.
The amount of time I was spending on Facebook was absurd, and you know what? I don’t think that would be a big deal if I were enjoying it. If it was bringing me joy than who gives a shit? I’ve been using Facebook since; I don’t know, 2005ish? And I look back fondly on the friendships I’ve made and kept because if it. I reconnected with old High School friends, marketed my business, and have truly loved sharing and reading updates.
I am a people person, and what better way is there to connect with people than Facebook?
I mean, really? It’s a fantastic platform!
You knew a but was coming, didn’t you?
Of course, you did, I just told you I blocked Facebook!
Recently (and when I say recently I mean like the last year or so) Facebook hasn’t been enjoyable. It hasn’t brought me joy. It actually does the complete opposite. I find myself mindless scrolling through updates that depress me.
I thought for awhile I could control the environment within Facebook by only using groups or hiding updates from people who continuously brought me down. And that would work for a little while until it didn’t, and again I’d mindlessly scroll just because it’s what I do.
Last week I decided to uninstall the Facebook app from my phone. By the end of the day, I was visiting the mobile site like a freakin’ addict.
Today I decided to go cold turkey and installed this extension to Chrome.
I have not been on Facebook since this morning. It’s been about 7 hours, I think.
Again, go ahead, roll your eyes. I know how this sounds. It’s crazy!
In that 7 hours, I probably thought about typing Facebook.com in my browser approximately 3,472 times, but I didn’t do. I didn’t unblock it. Actually, what I did was leave a window open with this screen on one of my monitors as a reminder, and it helped.
Will I say I’ll never be on Facebook again?
I really do think it’s an awesome social network! I just need a break. I’ve been struggling with stress and depression recently, and I genuinely want to see if this makes a difference.
I think it will.
It may have already, and it’s only been a few hours.
Yes, I also know how crazy that sounds (it’s only been but a few hours!) but sometimes it’s not about the thing it’s about taking action to consciously try to fix the thing that helps me.